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2. I contemplate on the topics and presentation of the same to a newcomer. I am confident of presenting the core of almost all topic. I feel the topics. I must improve a lot on presenting stages of progress. I will be conducting the training program for @8 Hrs including 2 guided meditations. Lately there is not much response for the training program. But I continue to do things necessary to inform about the program.
Genuine efforts never go unrewarded. By preparing for the course you are also improving your understanding of the system. I wish you all the success in this regard.
Yielding
1. Meditation: (a) I could feel the dynamic nature of the system by way of changing feelings and thoughts over a period of month. (b) Predominant thought is of spiritual nature. The density of the same is of very fine nature. In a calm peaceful state, these thoughts come and go. (c) The most prominent and consistent change is related to strength of “HOLDING to thought”. i.e. Holding in terms of my attention to thought is of feeble nature and this is happening in a very natural manner. Issues that I face / activities that I do in day to day life do come in my meditation. This I call as thoughts of recent nature. Again this is feeble and it reduces further the 2nd day and then disappears. The strength is feeble and the duration is few moments. This lightness reflects itself when I handle these very same issues after I come out of meditation. Issue continues but not its effect. The feeling that this too shall pass of comes often.
These are signs of yielding and this will improve further. Insignificance is one of the states in this context.
More on Yielding:
1. So long as the sadhana goes you need to be less of a doer and that is possible only by yielding to the divine.
2. Total yielding to the Master dedicating all that is in all the five kosas of my being was the result of decades of practice. But I yielded from day one to follow