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Sadhana
1. During the meditation, I have ignored thoughts successfully but when not meditating, I did not do that many times. When I sit for meditation I am feeling calm, light, one with god, but when I don’t meditate I am failing to remember that oneness with god many times. Whenever negative thoughts occur, there is an immediate thought that I cannot entertain them as a follower of Master, but I keep paying attention to them for no reason.
A mind that was accustomed to a particular way of thinking cannot be changed that easily what to say of habits and reflex actions. That is why our efforts in this direction is called sadhana.
2. I'm regular in my sadhana, but I could do better in establishing a fixed time for meditation. I rise before dawn, but have a pattern of drinking coffee before bathing and prayer, which delays my prayer to be later than it should.
My self and my wife were also like that in yester years. Now first we attend to prayer and then other things follow. It is all sadhana and it means it takes time for the thought to percolate into the grosser levels of actions. Have faith in yourself and you will achieve the goal.
3. A few days felt thoughts beyond mundane & self. Aspiration for greater faith in the Master, of wanting to be close to him.
Sadhana done without expectations will bring all these at the appropriate time.
4. I have been regular to all satsanghs and individual sittings, but I have not been very regular in my Sadhana. Many times I felt guilty and did not send the report. I realize the importance of this and will make every sincere effort to send the report regularly.
Whether you send the reports to me or not your doing sadhana with earnestness is more important. Guilt should naturally lead to repentance and that to a good prayer to Master.