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knowing your dependency there can be no devotion. Your lowliness must be understood before you can think of getting devoted to somebody. I am devoted to my father, I am devoted to my wife, there is enormous difference between these two words. One is definitely far superior, another is only an equal, equal coparcener actually. I don’t know why English got into that dirty position of saying that I am devoted to wife. You are devoted to parents, you are dependent upon the wife. So the dependency can give you two concepts whether devotion or coparcenership. I can be equal to God or I am dependent upon God, these are the two feelings that you get. When you use the word Aham Brahmasmi, it is the coparcenership that we are talking about, I am equal to Him. My wife, dependent upon me. I am dependent upon him, he is dependent upon me. She is dependent upon me, I am dependent upon her. In devotion I am dependent only on Him, He is not dependent upon me, I am not even aware of that. To move into the realm of bhakthi, you must understand that you are low, lowliness of your being must be understood. Without knowing your lowliness, you will never be devoted. We would like to have barter with Him, equal. I pay this, you pay me, I will do this, you do that. Whole of Mimamsa suffers from this. Mimamsa, which is nothing but Vedas, yagnas, yagas, suffer from this. I do this, I offer this you better give me this. I do this aswamedha, you better give this, I will give this purushamedha, you give this, barter, business, that is the level at which Vedas ended. That is the reason why Krishna said Nistraigunyo Bhavaarjuna because these things are connected with a barter level, God is compelled to obey what you pray for, He has to grant. That’s what the tradition says, I am not here to question it, I am only questioning the attitude towards God. So long as you have got that attitude, it is only an equal position. In equal positions, you will end up only with Aham Brahmasmi. Aham Brahmasmi is a state of mind where you would like to say I am equal to God. You are, none of us is less than that. It is God in expression alone who is here. There is nothing here which is not Divine, there is nothing here which is less than Divine. Yet, this divinity that is in expression that is in manifestation is dependent upon that divinity which is there above, far above, which is the essence. When I say above, I do not mean that you have to go to spatial level, above means something far beyond, far beyond. I am not looking at the sky, far beyond us. So once this dependency is understood then only your devotion starts. This devotion starts here first, first is I would like to have some wishes granted. You feel the dependency for granting of certain wishes. I would like somebody to get