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that we have talked about, but this is the ideal situation. Your day should terminate in a feeling of total helplessness of this humanity to better itself and seeking the divine help for the overall betterment, not just seeking your betterment. That is why the prayer becomes plural. As Dr. Varadachari puts it, he says in the beginning you can start with I, "I am yet but slaves of wishes putting a bar to my advancement", later on it changes to we. "We are yet, but slaves of wishes". Here the wishes is not just yours. Even when he says singular it becomes wishes only and not my wishes. I am yet a slave of wishes, not only my wishes, my wife's wishes are there, my sons wishes are there, my father's wishes are there, my friends wishes are there about me. They have got various expectations about me. All those things are binding me. I must get out of it. I pray, I am incapable of coming out of it, you better save me. That particular attitude of humility we have to develop. Only when we know the enormity of the subject we will be in a position to develop the humility, otherwise we will think we are very confident to do anything. The prayer also as far as I know, majority of the abhyasis do it ritually repeating it once or twice. We should get into that thought and get lost. Once or twice is remembered very well because one and two we know buckle my shoe. These two we remember and then go to bed. No question of getting into that attitude of humility, no question of feeling the presence of the divinity, no question of feeling the necessity to grow beyond ourselves, no necessity to pray for others or you have some problem. That problem overtakes you during the prayer and then that problem alone is remembered. Neither the God is remembered nor the solution is remembered, only the problem is remembered. This is very unfortunate way of prayer.
Prayer should be one where one should feel the lapses of every other person as his own lapses. If the Nation has failed it is we who have failed. If the world has failed it is we who have failed. Such is the notion of Brahman. A person who lives at the higher consciousness feels so. Fifty years back it was normal for every person to feel for others. Some calamity has happened else where they used to feel, today we seem to be totally indifferent. The problem becomes real only when we suffer, when somebody else is suffering it is not our problem. It is our misfortune that we have got isolated, insulated. Insulated to such an extent that we stink within. Let us get liberated out of this. That we can do only when we can maintain our 9.00 P.M prayer.