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Sandehamu is actually a state of doubt. The reason for the doubt is mainly because the bodies of the lower plane - physical, vital, mental and aspirational have come to a state of balance and it is samadeha actually, it is balanced body. It is not sandehamu only. Doubt also is there but basically it is because of balance of all the bodies you start questioning if this is not the end and this leads to the feeling may be I can come again. There is a desire to comeback to existence again and again. That is why people who are in atmananda are reborn. If we keep atmananda as our goal then we definitely come back because atma can have this ananda only when the body is there. So we require a body and would like to come again. The desire for non-body is not there. The feeling that you would like to get rid of your body is not there. The jeevatma still would like to come again.
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