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This swabhimanamu is another thing that comes mainly because, of this earlier attitude. The Atma kshoba is there, then you do not want to give up your method, you know that some other method is available that perhaps is better, guru needs to be changed, better guru is available, but Swabhimana will not allow you to do that. My attachment to my faith – attachment to faith is a better word, my attachment to my faith is the worse word. That is the swabhimanamu and secondly we are not prepared to concede that what we have done so far is wrong. It hurts us to think that all our efforts have gone waste. If you want to cross over this you need a good friend, good counsel. So, if you look at it, 63 atma kshoba, 64 is swabhimanamu, 65 is maîtri. Logically you can not come out of it unless somebody is there who is going through or gone through such pangs and suffering. He alone can guide you.
Majority of the people not accepting another path is only this. They are devoted, they have sraddha. Everything they have got but they will not change because this is standing in the way. The self is standing in the way. It is one of the states of ego and only when you find a
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