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we are talking about here, is not the ostentatiousness of a lay person.
Aadambaramu means a show off. Some sort of a person who displays tricks like a magician. A classic example is like this. When we mix camphor, vaama crystals and nimma crystals together it becomes a liquid immediately. Since we have a head, we have a headache. Now, a person gets these these and it becomes a liquid. The surrounding people applaud saying it is a miracle. If we get the same ingredients, we will also get the same liquid, it is the quality of the chemical. When asked at the ayurveda store, they say it is a standard medicine that is given to everyone. So such people display tricks. So, he was able to show off something, which you do not know. Trying to show yourself off before somebody else.
This problem is more so in spirituality. There will be an abhyasi who would have joined recently. He is impressed upon by saying that it is not easy, it is very difficult etc. Don’t go to Narayana, he might scold you or beat you. He will show off as if he is nearer to me. This is the drama that is most common in spiritual life. This can be seen everywhere, they make a guru of anybody.
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