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BODHAYANTI PARASPARAM – VOL 7
alone will remain constantly before our eyes and everything else will lose its charm or significance.”
Another shortcoming of desire is that it leads to so much that is undesirable. I have had occasions when the pressure of work and unethical public life with which I was also associated as a public servant when I used to feel depressed and gloomy. This arousal of feeling of gloominess is not necessarily when the matter involved is public service. While I was dealing with many disciples of our Master I have had the misfortune of observing many undesirable practices in spiritual life. When I was attacked by gloomy thoughts, nothing helped me so much as study of the books of the Master. They quickly kept me absorbed and banished the clouds from my mind. When I tried to forget those situations during my meditations and cleaning I was not finding much relief and I noted that nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it. Refuge in the Master was the only way out and when I was tired of reading I used to resort to prayer without any seeking trying remain in the thought of
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